LONG ASS TIME.
God where do I start.

I've had a few glasses of wine. That's probably the best thing to start with.

I am hopeful. Hard to believe, right? Not if you see the mainstream media for what it truly is - a mouthpiece for the government owned by about 5 very rich white men. Let me just say this. UKRAINE = USA.

Things are happening.

Past that, I am feeling my age and it's okay. I remember thinking 30 was ancient. Now I am grateful for those who shared any part of my wild and silly stupid youth (http://www.livejournal.com/users/androit/ - thanks for your share of time).

We grow up when we say we do. I'm glad I didn't know that at 17.

I am ready to grow up now. Funny. I am a mother of a 4 year old and a 2 year old and NOW I am ready to grow up.

I have learned that the most powerful emotion is that of being overwhelmed. I am in a state of bliss when I am overwhelmed with love. I realize now that any situation that brings about a feeling of being overwhelmed, is one where my love is overwhelming me. When I see the pictures of Iraqi children with limbs missing and blood dried onto their bodies, I am overwhelmed. It could be taken at face value as sadness, but I realize it goes beyond that. It's this overwhelming love I have for this one that could be my own that is tearing me apart.

In this tragic horrid reality...

How beautiful it is to be overwhelmed with love for humanity itself.

We are one. As soon as we realize this - as soon as we drop dehuminizing one another - as soon as we connect - we are again whole.

Don't doubt for a second my love for humanity.

God bless the music makers.

"Come on, oh my star is fading
I swerve out of control
If I, If I'd only waited
I'd not be stuck here in this hole.

Come here, oh my star is fading
And I swerve out of control
And I swear I waited and waited
I've got to get out of this hole

But time, is on your side
It's on your side, now
I'm pushing you down
And all around
It's no cause for concern..

Come on, oh my star is fading
And I see, no chance of release
And I'm dead on the surface
But I'm screaming underneath

And time is on your side
It's on your side, now
I'm pushing you down
And all around
Oh, It's no cause for concern

Stuck on the end of this ball and chain
And I'm on my way back down.

Stood on the edge
Tied to a noose
Sick to the stomach
You can say what you mean
But it won't change a thing
I'm sick of the secrets
Stood on the edge, tied to a noose
and you came along but you cut me loose
You came along and you cut me loose
You came along and you cut me loose

-Amsterdam by Coldplay"